Dizzy.

Sitting still with the expectation of movement makes me dizzy. I seem to be getting dizzy a lot these days. Sometimes, it happens when I look out the train window before we've started moving, the anticipaion of the repetitious sound and momentum sparked from sights and smells. Other times, someone will stop walking or, worse, driving directly in front of me, my body having thought it would keep going without obstructions, me unsure if I should move around to the right, risking the person or autorickshaw or bike's movement again, or to the left in front of another person or vehicle that has no intention of stopping. That awkward dance where both you and he other mirror each other wishing you were doing the opposite And then occasionally, it is the expectations themselves that just have physics wrong. Leaving me, for a moment, stupefied. It's easy to say I have/had no expectations about India, but I know that, in reality, that's simply not true.